peach.

"and i have read the right book
to interpret your look

you were knocking me down

with the palms of your eyes"

im feeling antisocial today

[note to self: am i taking my meds right...?]

i bleached my hair to color it

and then changed my mind

and i havent picked another color

so at the moment im an asian faced blonde

plum.

i gave a quick thought to the ross/colleen split

totally team keltie

shes my girl that doesnt even know it

shes a complete doll

and role model for young girls

i love her to bits and ive never even met her

never was a fan of ryan or that band much

they were never much a fan of me

im off to watch whats eating gilbert grape..

again..

oh. you know its a classic

pear.

my aim is true

planning a bridal shower and batchelorette party is such a pain in the ass every now and then

but im willing to lay down the time and money to give my friend something unforgettable

i was thinking portofino and mandara spa... but, i cant quite make up my mind

something near universal city walk

i cant stand disney

and ive got my reasons

my voice is still a little jacked up

ive been singing too much

hahahaa

just you wait til i team up with my violin

this year im going back to school

but which one, i dont know

i want to take a trip out of the state
and i dont know where i want to go

do i know anything??

yes i do

i do know that i want some green tea and peanut butter and honey crackers

and i do know that no one gives pop rock a kick of get up and dance like the killers

knee slapper

this is quite hilarious
(the part after the priceline bit, even though that one is funny as well)

quite contrary

its a beautiful day outside
insanely so
i feel like i should be reveling in it
but im not
inside it feels like london

i cannot listen to 'tears in heaven' without crying about my parents still...

do not be deceived: time does not heal all wounds
i happen to believe it doesnt heal any at all
not even the paper cuts

the truth be told,
you may forgive but you will never forget
you may not feel guilty but will still have one or two regrets
time is a bandage
under which, leaves a scar

time cannot erase a scar

time cannot do anything other than hold us to its will

proust questionnaire

• What do you regard as the lowest depth of misery?
  - anything(one) being caged
  
  
• Where would you like to live?
  - yorkshire, kyoto, seoul, tokyo...
  
  
• What is your idea of earthly happiness?
  - paying it forward
  
  
• To what faults do you feel most indulgent?
  - shopping
  
  
• Who are your favorite heroes of fiction?
  - alexei (alyosha) karamazov, atticus finch
  
  
• Who are your favorite characters in history?
  - queen elizabeth I, audrey hepburn
  
  
• Who are your favorite heroes in real life?
  - the refugees, the coffee farmers, the victims of the world. people brave enough to face situations i could never endure.
  
  
• Your favorite painter?
  - klimt
  
  
• Your favorite musician?
  - thom yorke
  
  
• The quality you most admire in a man?
  - humor, intelligence, honesty
  
  
• The quality you most admire in a woman?
  - honesty, confidence, intelligence
  
  
• Your favorite virtue?
  - confidence
  
  
• Your favorite occupation?
  - writing
  
  
• Who would you have liked to be?
  - audrey hepburn, she had an amazing experience of love, death, fear, happiness, fame, humanitarianism, loss, fortune, and sadness. she has lived a fuller life experience then any that can be imagined in fiction and even perhaps fact.
  


• Your most marked characteristic?
  - humanitarianism, sarcasm
  
  
• What do you most value in your friends?
  - loyalty
  
  
• What is your principle defect?
  - smoking
  
  
• What is your dream of happiness?
  - being amongst friends
  
  
• What to your mind would be the greatest of misfortunes?
  - general disregard of whats happening to the world and the people and creatures in it
  
  
• What would you like to be?
  - a beekeeper
  
  
• What is your favorite color?
  - pink, brown
  
  
• What is your favorite flower?
  - sakura
  
  
• What is your favorite bird?
  - me and birds do not mix
  
  
• Who are your favorite prose writers?
  - charles dickens, jane austin, the bronte sisters, dostoevsky
  
  
• Who are your favoite poets?
  - bob dylan, dylan thomas, maya angelou
  
  
• Who are your favorite composers?
  - wagner, elfman, zimmer
  
  
• What are your favorite names?
  - kaori, alyosha, helena
  
  
• What is it you most dislike?
  
  - fake people
  
  
  
• What historical figures do you most despise?
  - every one that has ever oppressed any human being
  
  
• What event in military history do you most admire?
  - the korean war
  
  
• What natural gift would you most like to possess?
  - charm
  
  
• How would you like to die?
  - happy
  
  
• What is your present state of mind?
  - open
  
  
• What is your motto?
  - "i am a citizen of the world"

i am re-opening A Cause for Concern.

a project that i have had my heart set on accomplishing years ago.

this aim of ACFC is to get youth involved in world issues, local issues, humanitarianism.
to live the dream of One Love.

for the length of months, ACFC will spotlight a charity and then ACFC teamsters can set up charity events/fundraisers/etc in their own local communities within their own chapters.
all collected proceeds from around the world will then go directly to the spotlighted charity and a new one will follow.

please check it out and spread the word.

i truly believe that if youre not part of the solution, youre part of the problem.

www.myspace.com/mycauseforconcern

[in]securities

below is a list of things that i used to be [in]secure about,

until i realized to stop paying attention to whats [in],

and started pay attention to whats [me].

- i have crooked teeth and should get braces, but i just never have

- i gained 70lbs on zoloft, but im still not stressin

- i never finished college, but it doesnt mean i wont go back one day

- i have scars on my arms, but they remind me of who i used to be

- i havent had a place to really call home since i was 19, but i love every day of my life

its time to challenge the status quo

because we want and because we can

what are your former [in]securities?